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[Lonely in SLC]

I have a lot to share today. The roller coaster continues.

Monday, I signed paperwork for my new apartment. It is definitely a downgrade. It's a one bedroom apartment and very small. I can't believe this will be "Home" for at least 6 months. Very lonely. That night I went back to the parents house and just read a book.

Yesterday was a lot more interesting. I called my wife in the morning to let her know I would be coming by after work to grab a bunch of stuff to take to the apartment. I arrived at about 06:00 began packing up the truck. The wife and the kids were very helpful and we were all in a good mood.

She asked if I was going to invite the family out for dinner.

I jokingly replied what she was going to offer me.

She stated her gratitude.

My response was not good enough.

She then said a hug. I immediately took her up on it.

Still hugging, we looked into eachothers eyes for a moment. She then quickly broke the hug off laughing.

I had to ask why she was laughing. Her response was that she almost kissed me.

I cornered her in the kitchen and said, "Go ahead, I won't stop you."

She laughed and said no. I just said "Kiss me."

She agreed and said only a peck, then gave me a quick kiss. I was in heaven. I will take anything right now. I was smart enough not to push any farther.

After packing everything we drove in our separate cars to the apartment to unpack everything. My S10 was with me in the truck. He tells me that earlier in the day the W told him that she "would like" or "might" get back with me in the future, he can't remember the exact words.

I am on cloud nine. I don't believe that she would get our kids hope up if she did not have some strong feelings for me. I told my S10 to keep praying and have faith. Our family is going through some difficult times right now and will continue for some time, but in the end everything will be better.

We arrived at the apartment place. I could tell she was suprised at how small it is. As me and the boys unpacked the truck, she was organizing everything, dishes, towells, stuff like this. My kids are excited for me having my own place when they visit. The grandparents place was not a fun place to live for any of us.

Again, we just all enjoyed eachothers company. I still needed a couch, so afterwards we went to a furniture store. I ended up buying one. While in the store there were a couple of sexual inuendos thrown both ways!!! I think I mentioned that the new couch will be waiting for when she visits without the kids. She laughed.

Afterwards I took the family to a Mexican restaurant. It was almost like old times. Just a great time. When it was time to leave, I knew not to ruin a perfect day. I hugged and kissed all of my kids, we each gave eachother a kiss on the cheek, I sincerely thanked her for all of her help, then left.

It was a perfect night considering the circumstances. When I got back to my parents, I checked out her facebook. I am still in the bad habit of doing this. At 05:22 pm she posted, "Today has been a good day, played with my children in the morning, afternoon with a handsome and in the evening hopefully a good dinner!!!" I had to paraphrase a little since it is written in Spanish.

I immediately called S10 on his cell and asked if the W left them with a babysitter at any point during the day. He said that they were with her all day. My mind is racing, do I dare hope she was referring to me. I think I only slept for a couple of hours last night.

I would love to hear peoples thoughts.