XYZ is here longer than I ever imagined....

[XYZ]

So, Jack, remember when you told us about your sitch and you said that when your W first came back, you thought she'd fail? And you almost wanted her to? I seem to find myself in that same mental space right now.

All in all, when I look at the last 4 weeks it's great progress but I see so many things that I keep convincing myself that this will fail. I don't want it to, maybe I'm just protecting myself if it does. Weird space to be in.

4 weeks ago tomorrow W told me she'd schedule MC. 3 weeks and nothing. A week ago, she told me she'd emailed her contact for a referral. Several days after that she said she'd follow up as she had yet to hear anything. Now, several more days later and nothing. I just don't get it. I know I can't rush her, but if this was important to her then she' do it. Her words are all good, her actions not so much.

I see her last night and she sits with arms crossed and not chatty. A bit later, it improved but still not great. I get home and she starts texting me and it's fine. It's like she's ok with me via TM, but not in person. SAYS she want's to do MC, but won't schedule it. Texts me ILY, not doesn't show it at all.

I don't understand. I know it's slow, I have to be patient, it's not a straight line; I just want the actions to match the words. Otherwise I am suspect of it all.