I'm so very sorry, man. So very sorry. Start reading the Divorce Busting book. It helped me realize what I was doing wrong while trying to force my wife to make the right decision about us. Be patient and read and read and read.
I also read "How to Wind Your Wife Back Before It's Too Late" and it helped me as well. If nothing more than making me a stronger man.
I'm still not sure if my wife will leave me. Things are so unbalanced and it feels like we're treading on real, thin ice. But the books have given me hope to make me a better person.
Even if it ends (the marriage) there's still a chance. I'm not one to provide false hope or tell you things you want to hear. It's going to be tough. It's going to hurt like hell and you'll have battle scars to prove it. All I can say is this is where you become strong for you if no one else.
Remember, it's not a sprint. It's a marathon. It's totally cliche' but it's fitting. I'm an endurance athlete and sometimes my training has helped me focus on what needs to be done the right way.
I'm here to chat if you need someone. I journal a lot here just to put my thoughts and feelings down. It sort of helps me see what's working and what isn't. And how I'm dealing with the situation. So far, not so good.
Do the best you can to find activities and other things to get your mind a little off of it. Be outgoing and fun as best as you can. Get a hobby. Don't sit and dwell and focus on the bad it will darken your spirit and manipulate you into doing the wrong things.
Me:42 W:43 M:03/08/98 SD17, D13 Found out about affair:12/16/10 Found out again: 06/22/12 Split: 06/22/12