Clock Radio went off with a JLS song this morning, and now its stuck in my head, words where:
Lets get back together We should have never split up Its telling me that my heart wont beat again, beat again, beat again
After last night, kind of has a bad ring to it.
I have been speaking to an old colleague regularly over the last few days and weeks, who has just split up with her H (She was the one to leave) and she has been a great help also. I have explained my sit in detail and what W has been saying and doing, and she too says W seems to be very confused.
Annoyed last night as W specifically asked to come, and then not show up. It was my brothers 40th birthday (although the party was last week) and he and his family wanted to come along, but I thought it wouldn't be a good idea if W was coming!
I had no expectations for last night, even after the signs in the last week, but I did expect her to turn up.
W has told me she works later when she doesn't have the kids so most likely the truth. W always looked forward to getting home before the S, so shows she doesn't have much else going on and doesn't want to go back to an empty flat. All her friends are married etc so doesn't go out much. Not a vision of a better happier life IMHO, which she sees I am getting on with (to an extent)
After last Sunday W seemed to have done a lot of thinking, obviously some more needed, but that's her journey.
The last couple of weeks had been positive for me in moving forward, but the last week has kind of halted that progress, need to get back on it.
Me - 37 W - 38 D - 14 S - 12 Together - 16 Married - 12 Bomb - April 13, 2011 W moved out - May 13, 2011
The man I became is changing back to the man I was........... and more
