Country thank you for the reply. Hmmm why did i lie? Not really sure other than i just needed time to myself without a text. So basically what you said should've been my reply which is pretty much the truth. I just needed time to myself to let my brain not go into warp speed.
I'm currently reading DR. Yes i do need to stop with the begging and pleading, i wholeheartedly agree. The apologizing was because i had scared her and made her think something bad had happened to me. I guess what you are saying is thats to bad on her part huh?
You're right, i'm scared sh!tless. Scared that i'm losing my family that i love and cherish very much. More than anything in the world. Scared that i'm losing my wife whom i care very deeply about.
I've vowed not to initiate contact with her, to let her contact me first and to make it just about the girls. This is extremely hard for me because i want to talk to my wife and ask her how she is and how the girls are. I feel like i'm getting better at this but it's very hard for me.
