Divorce on the horizon?

[tadpole1025]

Thanks everyone.

I've been thinking about a lot of things today.

First, I did what AJ and MHL said and looked over my shoulder. I've come a long way. The pain is still here, but nowhere near where it was. When I look back at the way I was and some of the thoughts that I had Dec-Mar, it scares me. I hate to admit it, but I was suicidal for a few months. My depression still continues, but the meds help. I've been slowly peaking my head out a little more often.

Second, I did a lot of thinking about the events of yesterday. It was the first thing I thought of this morning. I realized that man, SHE IS CRAZY. Some of the things that she said and the way she looks just makes me realize that no, she is not happy. She is very confused and lost. She seems to have crawled back into her hole too. She hasn't contacted S16 since I picked him up on Saturday. The past few weeks, she has been contacting him 1-3 times daily. It is very weird. There will be like phases or cycles that she goes through. Has anyone heard of this?

Another comment from yesterday:

"You're the good guy. You're the good guy in all of this. You're always the good guy. Of course, I'm the bad person and you're the good guy."

Whatever right?

As for me, I had a pretty decent day today. I wish that I had more of them. Maybe I am cycling like W? The boys and I tackled the backyard. (It had pretty much been ignored since December.) We cleaned the pool and got rid of the weeds and mowed the lawn. It was 110 out. Needless to say, I have an award-winning sunburn. This evening, we cooked some steaks on the grill.

I've thought about and missed W all day. I still miss her terribly.

In other news: I HAVE A JOB INTERVIEW TOMORROW.

Wish me luck.

Thanks for all of the wise words.

Tad