Oh, just want to add. I know how much being on moderation at the beginning [censored]. By your post count I am guessing it will be over soon.
You will start getting much more support once your posts show up on the first page. Until then, keep journaling and feel free to post on other peoples threads.
Even in the heat of the battle, you might not have advice you can give, but you can be another ear to listen. A quick post just to show this can mean more than you might think.
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Happiness is not something ready made. It comes from your own actions.