Lost, confused and don't know what to do!!!

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D&C, man this is all painful to read. I know the pain of OM all too well.

But here is the thing. Your W is having an A.

You are STILL begging, pleading, and bargaining. VERY anti DB.

You are still calling her 'babe.'

What does OM call her.

I do not say this to hurt you, I just know from my own experience how hard it is to accept.

Have you read DR? If not do so. If you have. Read it again.

NO BEGGING and PLEADING!

In your last exchange, how many times did you say you were sorry? For what again? Well, you shouldn't have lied. If you had not done that, I'd say nothing. So why did you lie? Out of fear?

Could you have not said "W, I needed some time for myself today to sort some things out"

Would that have been honest? Would there have been anything to apologize for?

One thing that I find so important in all of this, and that is giving yourself time to step back from things, find yourself, and get your head clear. Without it, you will make mistake after mistake.

Shoot even if you do, you will make mistakes. We all do. We just do our best to learn from them.

Right now I see someone who is so scared he is holding on by his finger nails. Trust me, I know the feeling. But you can't hold on that way for very long. You will fall.

So start building a place to land. Stand back up. And then, move forward.