Can I "fake" GAL?

[Very Confused]

I wish dreams could come true..Usually I have really bad ones about my H and I have to wake up and tell myself it was just a dream. This time is was so good..then I had to tell myself the same thing. It made me so sad, more so than I have been in a long time.

I am hopeless today, missing my H, getting impatient. I just want to know either way which way we are heading. Not too different from any other person on here, right? To answer the question regarding how close I am to what he is looking for? I have everything he's looking for on paper. It's like he was trying to re-create what we had together, but he never let me in to his "soul" as he calls it. He would never open up to me, and when I would ask why, he would say "I don't want to sound like a little B!tch". So I don't know if he wasn't comfortable with me or what. We did have a great heart to heart a few nights before he moved out and he was surprised at how well I understood his feelings..but at that point he had totally checked out and I don't think God himself could have convinced my H to work on the marriage.

I have 11 days until I have to give notice to vacate my apartment. And so does he. I am trying to remain hopeful. But when I think of us living together again, I just can't picture it in my head. How do you go from 0 time together to 100% of the time together?