Well I woke up a million times hoping she'd be in bed next to me. It didn't happen. Woke up around 7 took a shower, and was pleasantly surprised that she made me eggs. ( for those that remember fancy breakfasts is her way of making a peace offering). She even held them out as if to say "look what I made for you!). I was so grateful I thanked her profusely. Maybe a little too much. I tasted them and even almost burst into tears. I think she noticed my eyes were watery. I finished getting ready and we discussed somethings that had to get done. She asked where the nearest grocery store was and a gave her directions. Told her she could take a cab, she said it was ridiculous for such a short distance. I offered to go get her some coffee she said no that was ok. As I was getting ready she came up to me to straighten my color and button up my top button. I felt so lucky.
I can definitely tell things are still very rough. Need to give her space and not pester her, yet at the same time I need to do little things to show her I still love her. It's a hard mix since too much can be pursuing.
I hate being on the other side of the world since I know the people I have come to depend on for advice are probably in bed right now.
Starsky Yes I was crying out to good last night. I think I might have gotten an ulcer. The only thing that got me through was a Michelle said to think about a stop sign. I can't picturing nothing but stop signs until I passes out.
YAH Going to give her space, but as you have shown me I need to continue a small but steady stream of kind acts so that she knows I care.
