short update [before the hiatus]

My W called me today to talk about what was going on. She could tell I was pretty upset last night/this morning.

W: So do you want talk about it?

M: Well, during the session I started to feel like maybe we didn't have the great of a marriage after all.

W: Yeah, we talked about how maybe the past was a little rosy, but I don't recall any specific instance where I thought at the time we had a bad marriage.

M: She also talked about how I need to work on things for my next relationship.

W: Well we kinda talked about how we need to work on things individually either for our marriage or other relationship. I think this kind of stuff goes beyond a romantic relationship, it applies in all relationships [Ed note: I think she was talking alot about herself] It is stuff that needs to be said though.

M: I kinda got the feeling it was like "why bother with this m?" [ed note: maybe not the best way to phrase it, but I was just going on what I thought the IC's message was]

W: Well, we really don't know what's going to happen. She doesn't know me, she doesn't know our marriage, she's only had 2 sessions with you. We don't know. I mean I hope we can use this to build a better marriage, but no one knows.

W: I'm not telling you I'm done.

M: I don't know there are times when I feel so lost.

W: Well, you know that you aren't alone in this. I'm here too and I feel that way too, but we are not alone.


She then gave me some pointers on how to have productive IC-client relationship.

I still need a break, but maybe it's not so dark out.


Patience is bitter, but its fruit is sweet.
--Jean Jacques Rousseau.