When life hands you lemons add alcohol and stir!

[mishka422]

Michelle, I never looked at it that way. My view toward our R is still that this is temporary and when he finds a better situation he'll leave. I think I'm afraid to think any other way because I feel it might kill me for sure this time when he does leave.

He hasn't given me any reason to think he's going to leave. He's been nothing but helpful and loving. He's never been one to express his feelings so I don't expect him to. His actions definitely say, "I'm here loving you and want to stay with you." My self-protective wall just won't even crack! Scary!

Wii,I think I can get that book for my Kindle (I'm SO bad with libraries!). I should do it ASAP. Maybe it can help me focus and let a little light through that wall.

Kat, I have been making sure that I tell him how much I appreciate things that he has done for me but I'm thinking I need to rephrase that to tell him that it makes me feel loved. That is a good idea. Appreciation is not nearly as powerful as letting someone know how their action made you feel.