cat, i do love him and i know that what i feel for him is not contingent on what he feels for me
there is some comfort in this (not sure why)
grace, i do feel like i have to leave no stone unturned........unfortunately this lead to a relationship talk yesterday where he once again, told me the.......you know (l love you but......) yuck, i even hate to write it
we did end up laughing about it tho
i said some silly things about how we can save our marriage and we both found them humorous....we hugged and he gave me a small kiss on the lips and i asked "anything?"
"nice try": he said, "but nothing"
i was more joking than anything, but of course, he was not
time to try to rebuild a friendship
time to move on and become the me that i lost somewhere in this marriage
