I had no other choice but to move my children and myself to my parents because I could not deal with him coming back in the morning again.
During this time I found his secret email account to the ow...not that I didnt know this was going on but WOW...a real eye opener. A very immature relationship with much game playing.
I then had the courage to call her..now keep in mind she was my best friend so I dont recommend this...it can be quite painful and you really have to decide who to trust. In my case..I have heard so many lies on both sides.
To keep it short....I now know that she found this site because my husband found the book under the bed a few years ago. He told her and she searched through a ton of posts until she found the one that fit our story..she then would send my husband posts that I had posted...
So....as it stands...I cant do this anymore. I cant play this sick game anymore. I have to move on with my life no matter how painful.
Here is the problem...I have ruined so many relationships because of this...friendships, family relationships, I have been a good mom but not the great mom I know I can be. How do I change all of this.
So much has been destroyed. Its such a mess..our lives are a mess. The good news is I have started dreaming again...and I finally feel more like myself. I feel a little glimmer of hope but then the depression hits..I compare it to this..I train and train for a big race..after the race I dont know what to do with myself because I spent all this time training...Same thing. How do I fix this utter destruction...The game is still being played..on all accounts...but I want OUT! The game is sick, hurtful and I am not sure what else to say...HELP!
