Yes grr I am.

Today is not the day you quit. Tomorrow that might change but today is not the day.

repeat that ever day.

I don't see any reason to desperately hold onto a marriage for them, the WAS. There is no love that is so 'needy'. What I believe is that you do all of this, your absolute best, because you made a vow.

Some can argue that since they broke their vows, yours no longer applies. Does being married mean that if they steal you can? If they lie, your free to do so? If they have an affair you can claim one as well, tit for tat, even steven?

Our marriage failed because of both of us.
Do not get me wrong, both of us.
I failed my wife and she failed me.
It wasn't until I realized that I had failed that I got on track, failing once I did not wish to fail again. Was I perfect? No far from it.

But I did not justify my actions by saying she did this, so I can do that. I did not justify my weakness as some sort of blessing because of hers.

I did my best to be stronger than her 'desire', and desire changes.

My vow is what made me see this through. My promise.
For better or worse, in sickness...ahhh most of us know the words. They sound pretty when you say them. Still do, and are rock hard to live up to.



Experience is a brutal teacher, but you learn. My God, do you learn. - C.S. Lewis

Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B. - Jack3Beans

Listen without defending; Speak without offending - FaithinAK

TRUST THE PROCESS - Cadet