Don't know what's going on with me or in my own head.
Feel this intense antipathy towards my STBX and felt flashes of real hatred for him yesterday.
Is this normal? Is it a subconcious method on my part to steel myself for implementing no contact tomorrow? A way to create mental distance shield myself, so I can be strong enough to dismiss him as irrelevant to my life?
I hope this is normal, because I have it. I fluctuate wildly between being sad, angry, hurt .. all the bad emotions.
How is no contact going? In some ways I envy you being at that point - I'm 2 weeks out from being able to go dark with H, and I don't know how I'm going to make it.
H: 39, Me: 37 SD: 18, S: 7 M: 9, T: 10 "I love you but am not in love with you" - 5/11 Discovered online affair - 7/11
