Feeling Low

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I just need to know, am I a fool for not wanting a D? Am I wasting my time "waiting" for my H?

I am so tired of friends/family telling me that they think it's dumb of me to not go and file for D and move on with my life. I feel like I have to justify my reasons for not wanting to give up and I hate that!
They think I'm crazy for continuing to pay his health insurance, etc. It's money that has always been taken out of my check, money I never saw or missed, so what is the big deal?

Sometimes I feel they are right and others I don't.
It would help if we had some sort of contact, but we don't. For all I know he could have moved on already.