Decided to move out of Newcomers and move over here as my WAW moved out in February and I'm not seeing any signs of her moving back anytime soon.
Been a while since I posted anything, so I'll take this opportunity to update a bit. Been a rocky road with WAW. Through the help of this community, I've been able to determine my WAW is squarely set in her MLC. She is seeing an IC and says that is helping, but the two of us have a very difficult time communicating.
I've found I don't really like being around her. It causes both of us serious angst. We seem to only communicate via electronic means. Last night, she was over to see D9. I made dinner. We ate in silence. She left without saying "Good bye."
And so we move forward. Her IC has told her to stop focusing about the big D and we have agreed to put it off until January. I'm feeling rather exhausted by all this and if progress isn't made by then, I'm ready to sign off and be done with it. I think our D9 has come to the realization that this is over, also.
WAW is seriously conflicted. She says, while she recognizes our marriage is over, she still "feels" like my W and that causes her issues. From my side, I don't get that feeling at all. I've taken the approach of dealing with her MLC by giving her everything she's asked for- separation, space, end of relationship - thereby forcing her to have a 180 of her own. Now that I'm done and ready to move on, she appears to be holding on to little things putting on the brakes. However, this can't last. I am at a break point and my life is heading in a different direction. I'm off the roller coaster and don't wish to get back on. I've gone very dark and it is now easier to see the light.
I guess I don't really have much to report. I just wanted to let the many friends I have here to know I'm doing well and continuing OnMyWay.
"Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending." - Maria Robinson
M: 45 WAW: 36 T: 17 M: 14 Kids: D9 ILYBNILWY: 6/2010 W left: 2/2011 W back: 2/2012
