I'm angry and sad this morning. Knowing what he was doing on Saturday night .. while I was in the next room - it's sickening. How can anyone be so heartless?
At this point, I'm counting the days until he's out. Our S7 goes to camp for 4 days next week - I will be asking H to stay someplace else during that time. We're not telling S until he's back from camp, but if he's not in the house, I see no reason H should be either.
H: 39, Me: 37 SD: 18, S: 7 M: 9, T: 10 "I love you but am not in love with you" - 5/11 Discovered online affair - 7/11
I'm sorry today isn't going well for you. I don't blame you for being upset.
I think asking him to be somewhere else while your S is gone is a very good idea.
(((Hugs)))
Thanks. Right now I'm just focusing on how I'm going to get through the week and weekend with him. I'm not certain that I won't come out of this in two weeks hating him. I don't even know how that makes me feel.
H: 39, Me: 37 SD: 18, S: 7 M: 9, T: 10 "I love you but am not in love with you" - 5/11 Discovered online affair - 7/11
I just canceled the flight for the trip he was planning to take with our S7 to go visit his parents - the trip on which he and OW planned to meet.
He had said he would cancel it, but that's when he was agreeing not to talk to OW anymore. Since he hadn't canceled it and is now in contact with her again, I went ahead and canceled for him - you know, just to be helpful.
H: 39, Me: 37 SD: 18, S: 7 M: 9, T: 10 "I love you but am not in love with you" - 5/11 Discovered online affair - 7/11
He's back from his fishing trip. I have to say I was hoping he would be back later. Having gone through a night without him, I know it's a much better situation for me to not have him here. It's made me even more impatient for him to leave.
I'm hoping the house he applied for goes through so he can be out sooner - I'm thinking that even though we're not telling S7 until next weekend, there's no reason he can't start sleeping there sooner - maybe leaving after S goes to sleep and coming over before S wakes up. I don't know, but I know I don't want him here.
H: 39, Me: 37 SD: 18, S: 7 M: 9, T: 10 "I love you but am not in love with you" - 5/11 Discovered online affair - 7/11
Spent some time raging at him tonight - maybe 5 minutes. I asked myself "Does this get me closer to my goal, or further away?" and I realised my goal is to .. be done with him. So while it's hard to say yes or no, I had a good cry and I guess that helped.
H: 39, Me: 37 SD: 18, S: 7 M: 9, T: 10 "I love you but am not in love with you" - 5/11 Discovered online affair - 7/11
Talked with him for an hour or so last night. Didn't mean to, but ..
Anyway.
He told me he wants to pay for my car payment. And he wants me to keep everything - the tv, couches, etc. He'll re-buy everything slowly as he can afford it.
He said he just feels so bad about lying to me and leading me on for 5 weeks. I think he's just trying to absolve his guilt.
H: 39, Me: 37 SD: 18, S: 7 M: 9, T: 10 "I love you but am not in love with you" - 5/11 Discovered online affair - 7/11