I've been gone too long, I miss you! But starting to get my head out of the sand.
So many thoughts about your posts, I know exactly where you are coming from and how those old thoughts can sneak up and almost overtake your body and mind. It is quite scary the things the mind can do.
I love your list of goals, I am so bad at the negative self talk, if I talked to another human how I talk to myself it would be horrible, yet have no problem bashing myself. Definitely a goal to strive for---treat ourselves kindly.
I agree with the ask for a hug bit. I have found that I need to ask for what I need and state it that way, not---you don't give me hugs, but I need a hug to feel secure and then thank him when he does it, thanks, it makes me feel better, and possibly that leads to him doing it on his own, knowing what it means to you. Surprisingly, they can't read our minds and not stating what we really need isn't doing anyone any good. I am slowly learning this.
M, you are such a strong person, you have been through so much and have done it with poise and grace. Juggling a family with work and doing it on your own while H worked out his crisis and giving him that gift of doing so. Don't sell yourself short. I think many men think that just being around says all they need to say about the R. Though he rated the M at a 9, can't get much better than that!
When he goes out with the guys, why not have something wating for him when he comes home? Rose petals leading to a candle lit bedroom with wine/sparkling water waiting for him and soft music? Give you something fun to plan while he is out and then a nice surprise for him at home.
How is the new house? How was your trip? I like the DB tatoo--would help us identify others when we out and about.
