Feeling Low

[~¤DG¤~]

Journaling---

I wish he would stop haunting my dreams. I have had dreams about my H on a pretty regular basis lately. When I wake up, I am reminded of my reality and feel an intense sadness.

I feel like I am back sliding a little bit. I'm not doing anything different, I'm still GAL for myself and enjoying it, but my heart is hurting. It seems like sometimes I feel on top of the world, and other times I feel like jumping off of a cliff. (Metaphorically speaking.)
I know everything I am feeling is normal and to be expected, it's all part of the hills and valleys that everyone on here speaks of.

Today is going to be hot as h*ll, so my 2 girlfriends & I are going to the beach. I have yet to be there this year and I'm looking forward to it.

I'm going to continue plugging along, trying my best to be happy despite my circumstances, and remind myself that I have evolved into a wonderful woman who deserves to be happy.

[LearningPatience]

I'm going to continue plugging along, trying my best to be happy despite my circumstances, and remind myself that I have evolved into a wonderful woman who deserves to be happy.

You are absolutely correct DG!

I think even with detaching, those feelings ebb and flow. Perfectly normal.

Enjoy the beach and don't forget the sunscreen! I think I'm going to hibernate between 1 and 5 myself.

[any chance?]

DG:
Hang in there. I understand your pain. I am in a pattern of waking up at 3AM and staring at the ceiling for 3-4 hours before getting up. This cannot be good in any way, shape or form.

Take heart in your evolution, and keep it going. You deserve no less.

[a girl]

Hope you had a good and relaxing time at the beach today, DG!

[~¤DG¤~]

I had a great day at the beach with my friends.
We swam, lounged, laughed and all around had a good time. I can't remember the last time I went to the beach with no kids. I think this might have been the first!

It was hot and the beach was crowded but we didn't care. It's not often that the 3 of us are able to get together at the same time, and we were all happy to be able to chill and relax.
Despite sunscreen my face is fried, but I feel great. The subject of H came up once or twice and of course they think I'm stupid for wanting my M to work but that is their opinion. I know they love me and want me to be happy.

I'm beginning to lose hope that we'll ever be able to reconcile, but it is what it is.

[jbnati]

Glad you had a great day at the beach. You really getting the GAL'ing going! I'm proud of you.

I think you're in a good place.

I'm beginning to lose hope that we'll ever be able to reconcile, but it is what it is.

Hopefully, you're not obsessing on this and not focusing on this. This is the end goal. This is going to take more time, anyway.

[~¤DG¤~]

Hopefully, you're not obsessing on this and not focusing on this. This is the end goal. This is going to take more time, anyway

No, I don't think I am obsessing about this, although I'll admit it has been on my mind more the past few days than it has been in a while.

[~¤DG¤~]

Sometimes I miss him so much I physically hurt.

[LearningPatience]

DG,
I understand the feeling. It gets less frequent as time goes on and you get stronger. Hang in there, we're all pulling for you!

[GAL Man]

Just checking in DG to see how you are.

Great GAL activity going to the beach, I wouldn't mind doing that.....

Don't fret over the tm, sh*t happens, shows we are human, and shows you have morals and stand up for what you believe in.

remember you said to me that it was good to not have information from kids on what S is doing or saying, look at my update!!!!

Is no information better I ask? For YOU, to help YOU detatch