Grr, why are you upset with yourself for confronting your H? I am not saying you were wrong or right. It isn't up to me to judge that (and I am not making a response to anyone else who may have either). My question is why? Why did you feel the need to confront him? And why are you upset with yourself for doing it?
mmf
mmf, thanks for writing......i want to answer your question and i had to think about it for a bit.....
i am upset that i confronted him because i do realize that he has to walk this path right now
in 17 years of being on the road with his band, he has never once cheated... i have heard from people that he has walked away from any temptation (much to the amazement of his bandmates) every time....
so i guess i should not have confronted him because we are separated...and to me that means he can do whatever he wants to do
i have actually thrown this scenario about in my head numerous times and had come to the conclusion that it would be good if he saw someone else...he needs to compare his life to something else
he needs to see what else is out there
that being said (or written) i cannot compete with a younger woman who is not at home with a child...a woman without responsibilities who may be able to meet him whenever
but i also know what i am
and most of the time i like me
but i did confront him due to the fact that he was paying money to fly her to be with him, when he has not given me any money for our child
that hurt
and in our entire relationship, he has never asked if he should pay for a ticket for me (that would be something i would not have accepted anyway)
is this a long vague answer to your question? sorry
thanks for taking the time to write and i hope that you are ok today
