"Awesome." Wow. My reaction was more like "I hate you for writing this." I grew up being told that I could craft my life any way I wanted to if I was willing to work hard, delay gratification, stay focused. I was so bought in to that world view that it held for months even after my husband and I split. I have gravitated to authors and books like Mort Fertel, Michele Weiner-Davis, and "How One of You Can Bring the Two of You Together" because I was willing to do whatever it took to win my husband back, and they were going to tell me how. My health, my faith, my bank account, my career - in every way, I am blessed beyond what I could ever deserve. Even in my marriage - no one else had my husband's love and companionship for twelve years. I am luckiest woman alive. But I am also the spoiled child who wants what she wants, and I can't stand the idea that it's not up to me how this all works out. I drove him away single-handedly - why can't I have the same control over bringing him back?
M: 43 H: 44 M: 12.5 if the 5.5 year separation counts Bomb (I dropped it): Dec '07 H said finit: Jun '10 I moved on: May '13
