Journaling (Sunday kids swap over day)

(word of the day appears to be “seems” from me)


W asked to have a chat, made cup of tea, went out in garden for cigarette

No telling her how nice she looked, was cool and calm throughout, LOTS of eye contact either way, W talked about her work and what she had been up to, I listened and listened some more, didn’t talk about me at all.

W tells me of the “effort” she has been making with kids, and IMHO she seems to be calmer and seems to have done some thinking!

Long chat about S12 and some concerns she has (W found some burnt paper in his room, looks like he had got W’s lighter etc etc etc, so need to watch this)

W was really nice, calm and seemed to be more comfortable


After W left had a chat with D14!!!!

When W came round to pick kids up on Wednesday after school (I was at work) D14 said W walked around the lounge and kitchen, and when W was in the kitchen she went through the cupboards and looked in the fridge! Then had a look around the lounge.

Then D14 tells me a couple of other bits, conversation something like this (between W and D14 on Monday)……

W – Do you think dad has a girlfriend
D14 – Don’t know, he goes out quite a lot and doesn’t tell us where he goes
W – That’s strange isn’t it

Then D14 tells me that they had a conversation regarding Christmas and where they will be, and that W said, well I don’t know, it depends if me and your dad aren’t together!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Again, don’t know what any of this mean, but I’m still moving forward……….


Me - 37
W - 38
D - 14
S - 12
Together - 16
Married - 12
Bomb - April 13, 2011
W moved out - May 13, 2011

The man I became is changing back to the man I was........... and more