And loose your mind you will. Sir step off the rollercoaster.please.
In terms of her thought of suicide...you still think something you did or did not do caused her to loose her fu*king mind. That is not the case with a life crisis.
This is her issue. This is her battle to fight all you can do is get out of the way. Let me give you another example.....say you were an auto car salesman a few years ago...the market and economy crashed so you were forced to look for a different type of career. You end up finding a job as a banker....which in turn CHANGES how you interact at your work. No more sales pitches....no you work in a cube as a result you no longer have he type of fun and jokes you used to have when you were a salesman....so your personailty at work changes - you work to fit in.
Did you have to change? Probably not but it just happened.
Is it your new employers fault? I would think not...it just happened.
Could you change back to your old work personality? ABSOLUTLY and therin lies my point. In the above example you changed.....and maybe you decided to change back ...maybe you didn't. It is no ones fault....it just is.
Your w has for whatever reason decided to change and she and she alone is the only one that can choose to change back.
Will she? Wtf knows. If I was diagnoised with cancer and told that I had a 20% chance to live....does that mean I am going to die? I guess it depends on how you look at it.
Tad you need to step back and take a look at where you are and what it is that you really want.
I can tell you that for me I want to be happy.
For me I learned that my happiness is not someone else respnsibilty.
For me I learned that no matter what obsticle you put in front of me I will survive.
For me I learned that I define Eric....not my wife, not my friends, fuc# not even my kids.....me...and me alone.
So Tad who'd do you want to be? What do you want in your life?
You may think you NEEDyour wife - you don't. You may feel that you will not make it wihout her.....you will. You may feel uunworthy, unlovable, feel like a victim, feel like a piece of chit.....you may feel a lot of things...
But
You tad change change all of his. Is it easy? Fuc* no but it is possible. You will realize this when you stop worryingand wondering about what your w thinks, feels or if she is is not mlc. The more energy you expand on her he less u expand on you!
Fu#& what she thought about if you stepped out the car, fuc@ ifshe is or is not talking to OM. what I hope you come to realize is that You are worth it...you are worth your best. Your wife cannot help here Tad....only u can do the work on you.
Be the man you want to be...
God bless Eric
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans
