Really trying to keep occupied while kids are on vacation for two weeks with w and inlaws. Very difficult but looking at using this time as a springboard for my 180's and development.
One thing that is REALLY starting to bubble up for me is; I finally am starting to believe I'll be alright without w. Still want us back in a HUGE way, however, I am God's child & belong to a much larger picture than my own.
A word that comes to mind is "uninhibited." I just feel less inhibited (restricted) and attribute this to becoming "the man that only a fool would leave." My highest and best self is emerging and it feels great!
Side note: Friday evening when walking in the park and listening to my iphone, I asked my mom (deceased) to continue to point me in the right direction.
Just then the song "Let it Be" by the Beatles came on. If you guys are familiar with the lyrics.
"Mother Mary comes to me" My mom always prayed to Mary for strength (yes we're Catholic "Speaking words of wisdom, Let it be"
Let it be people, let it be!!!! Of course my hair on my neck stood up and new what i needed to hear was spoken. Cool stuff.
That's amazing. I can't tell you how many times I have listened to that song..it helps me through the especially difficult, dark days we tend to have when walking down this path.
You sound like you are doing great! Keep it up.
Me: 35 H: 33 M: 3 1/2 years, together 6 years No kids Bomb #1: ILYBNILWY 1/25/11 Signed 6 month lease: 3/16/11 Separated: 4/2/11 I'm moving..alone: 9/27/11
That "syncronicity" with Let it Be happened a second time earlier today.
I kid you not, I had a shuffle (random play) going on my iphone glanced across the street at a neighbors house and noticed those statues of Mary that people sometimes put in their gardens and such. And, low and behold, the Mother Mary verse came on during the song exactly when looking at it.
Just had a little chuckle to myself. Call me silly/crazy, but it happened. Very cool~
"Speaking words of wisdom, Let it be"