I finally was able to get a hold of some old friends from back home. We've been talking off and on all day through IM's. Really wish I had the money to take a trip down there soon.
Start a new job tomorrow. See how that goes. Hopefully well. They said would probably get quite a bit of overtime. 45-60 hours per week. A lot of hours but would help out tremendously right now.
Went to the park earlier. gees it's hot outside! Some ladies got apparently thought I was more interesting than my own dogs. it kept pulling back to me to try to sniff me constantly.
Went to the store and had some cute blonde employee there hit on me. Was nice and I talked to her but not really interested in dating or anything right now.
Started my new job. Not sure yet what I think about it. Keeps me busy that's for sure. Doesn't quite keep me busy enough though. When I first accepted the job out there it was I'll get at least 45 hours a week. Found out yesterday that they don't even always get 40 hours. I'll give it a couple of weeks and see if pans out.
WAW and BIL came over yesterday to pick up a couple of things of hers. She let me know on her way out I probably shouldn't be at the family reunion next weekend because I'm not family. I just kind of shrugged my shoulders and let it be. Was probably her way of saying Hey I plan on bringing my BF to it and I don't want any problems.
Which would be okay if I believed in Karma. I think I'm the only one getting hit with it if it's real! Come on weekend though. I am so exhausted.
Congratulations and good luck with the new job. I hope you get busier and get the hours you want / need.
Originally Posted By: hollowed454
She let me know on her way out I probably shouldn't be at the family reunion next weekend because I'm not family. I just kind of shrugged my shoulders and let it be.
She could have been pushing buttons / testing you, too. Or she could be putting a label on you to convince herself, i.e. if I tell him he's not family, he's not family anymore.
I think your reaction was the right one though. You didn't make a big deal of it.
I'm just having a really bad day today. It's one of those days where I just want to go over there so badly and scream at her to quit lying to me about the other guy when there's too much that says that there is. I just want to know what I did that I deserved for her to do this to me. I know I did some things wrong but to cheat on me really and go on to form a relationship with him? That just seems so overkill for anything that I could have possibly done. I realize she's bi polar and is on a new relationship "high" right now so I can't expect anything rational from her but still I just wonder why.
Been a busy couple of days at work. I actually made a couple of friends. Don't work with them either so that's been exciting for me. Both are females and aren't looking for relationships and they know I'm not either which is good so we just been hanging out. I went jogging this morning. Went and seen a movie earlier. Waiting on Captain America to come out now. Were going to go to go play laser tag tonight. I finally managed to get back in touch with some old friends from back home in the past few days so been talking with them a lot. While I still have days that the whole situation bothers me a lot for the most part I'm learning to deal with it a lot better though to where I can actually function on a day to day basis.
Still no divorce papers yet. She was supposed to have gotten them 2 weeks ago. I don't know for sure but I think the other guy broke up with her. I could be wrong about that though.
Man that sounds so good! I know it's rough for you but look what you've accomplished. Bet it's been a long time since you made a move to make new friends, plus GAL with this other stuff. It just made me feel better reading your update.
((hugs))
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!
It really has. I miss my WAW terribly but I don't sit around all day worrying if she's okay or not. I'm not thinking about her all day long anymore. Of course I have taken my cell phone out of the closet now and I don't sit here watching it for a text or anything. Right now I'm actually having a lot of fun. Even when were all just sitting around chit chatting. I've made friends that are closer to my age and can relate to a lot of what I've been through and going through. It was really hard when I first started trying to GAL. In my mind I had already determined that while I can go see movies and jog that friends were going to be impossible to make till I actually decided to try to step outside of my own wall a little bit. I think my WAW kind of sees that I'm kind of happy right now she's been asking me more questions when she's over and I'm not putting on a fake smile or anything like that. I would still love for our marriage to work out but if it doesn't my life isn't over like I originally thought it would be. Which if I hadn't taken Sandi's advice of putting my cell phone away I probably wouldn't have taken any steps at all in this honestly.
We had a great time last night playing Laser Tag. One of them took lots of pictures of us 3 to put on her FB. I'm fixing to go shower now and go jogging. I was out till nearly 2am last night so I'm lagging behind on my usual routine today.
