He's out looking at a rental. It's only a couple minutes away, which will be good for S. Hopefully it works and he can just go soon. Can't take much more.

He's taking the car (big SUV, I don't want it), so I've been researching cars. I think I'm going to get a Honda Civic Sedan. I want something smallish and economical, but it needs to have heated seats - it gets cold here!

When he asked, I told him I was going with a friend fro work to look at cars. He seemed to want more info, but I didn't offer it - he doesn't get to know things about me anymore.

Good to have something to focus on other than my misery.

We usually carpool to work - thinking I will take the train starting next week.


H: 39, Me: 37
SD: 18, S: 7
M: 9, T: 10
"I love you but am not in love with you" - 5/11
Discovered online affair - 7/11