I guess I am now an official member of the DB club

[Woodman]

Just journaling.
Rough day today. I think that piece of paper I got yesterday is preying on my brain. I want to cry and scream at the same time. Don't want to upset the neighbors. I'm sitting here in the house I designed and had built for US, and I'm thinking I can't afford it alone and neither can she, so I guess it will be another victim of this nightmare.
A good friend came over and let me verbally beat up on him for a little while. That helped. I feel like I want to puke. I haven't been this bad in weeks. I WANT OUT OF THIS SOAP OPERA!!!
No contact with my wife, but I see by our joint account that is supposed to be for paying bills only that she is on a spending spree. Probably trying to self medicate. I saw OM at Mass Thursday and he and his W were all smiley and lovey dovey. Perhaps W has been kicked to the curb.