I am the devil....

[tadpole1025]

Thanks MHL, Antonia and AJ. Don't know where I would be without you guys and gal.

Yesterday was a pretty good day. Today is more....eh. Don't know why. Maybe it is because I have to go pick up S16 today. I'm not even going to get out of the car unless she asks me to like she has the past 2 times I was there.

Show your children how to "love" their mom from a distance by letting her do her thing........she will have to hit rock bottom......

Will I know when she hits it? I mean, back in April she was telling me how much her life sucked.....

Anyway because you are hearing the compliments, it means you ARE changing, and you are doing better.

I know I am. I still have moments/days....quite a bit of them actually. Other people can see that I am changing. Why can't W?

It dawned on me what you're doing. You are trying to develop a story of sorts, to help explain what is happening. I have done the same as has any person out there. It's a deep seated need. The hard part is that you don't have all the pieces to this puzzle.

Yeah buddy. Just trying to figure out what the hell happened to me/her/us I guess. A year ago at this time, everything was just perfect. Or so I thought.

W still continues to accuse me of not listening, not changing, being controlling......

We have our pre-mediation meeting on Monday at a coffee shop. She wants me to bring a list of all of my debt including regular utility bills and proof of what I am drawing on unemployment. As far as I'm concerned, she doesn't need to know the money that I am getting. I'm not letting her know that. I can't figure out why she would want it anyways unless she is trying to calculate somehow what child support payments may be. Any thoughts?

Thanks

Tad