Still juggling between being a good "roomie" and not wanting to appear like I'm waiting for her to come to her senses - 'cause I'm not - really. Cohabitating is civil but awkward.
My prayer life continues and I sensed the other day that XW still "blames" me for her choices, like I forced her or something. She keeps a "quiver of arrows" to fire at me, so I remain in STFU mode, lest the VSV rears it's ugly head.
But, since the death of my friend, I am living life to the fullest that I can. He had a simple philosophy - "live in the moment" - meaning concentrate on where you are and what you are doing in the "now". Don't dread the future or dwell on the past.
Had a wonderful week at summer camp with S12 and his scout troop. "roughing it" aint my idea of a vacation, but it was nice to get away.
That's all for now. pic.
Me 53 XW 50 M 18 Years +2 S14 D19 Bomb 10-24-10 Served 1-27-11 Mediate 4-21-11 Civil D Final 6-2-11 No church anullment "A man is not finished when he is defeated, he is finished when he quits."
