DG - JB is right on ^^^^^. My w didn't talk to me for 5 wks. She's now finally talking to me now that she has tole me that she wants a D. Trust me, I know how hard it is to want to text spouse!
Let me ask you this in regards to:
I can't help it. I miss him something fierce today. Even if he doesn't respond, I put it out there and let him know how I feel.
Is that the ONLY reason why you texted him or are you looking for some kind of re-assurance that he still cares about you? We all want our spouse to show us that "they care" or that this process hurts them as much as it hurts us. Be honest with yourself if this rings true (it did and still does for me). If so.. realize that YOU are worth talking to, YOU are worth the investment and if he doesn't put in the effort, it is HIS LOSS and in no way reflects badly on YOU. Remind yourself that every time you miss him, every time you are tempted to reach out. I'm not saying to get angry at him, this is just something that helps me get through those moments, those thoughts stop me from backsliding.
No 2x4 from me. Tomorrow is a new day. The great thing is that a new day brings a new opportunity to work on ourselves.
M(f): 40 D'ed: 8/12
Show empathy when there's pain. Show grace when warranted. Kindness in the midst of anger. Faith in the face of fear.
