I don't know what God has in store for me or what He wants for me long term. I don't believe that God would have me stand for my marriage for now only to not stand later, i.e. if there wasn't a "future" for a R with my W, I consider my stand more for Him than anything else. I hope I am explaining this well.
My primary goal and my daily prayer is that I am becoming the person God desires. From the "information" I have, I do believe that somehow, my M will be restored. It would take a miracle for that to happen. And that may be exactly what He plans on achieving because anyone in my family and any of our friends, if they aren't believers (and ones that really rely on God for everything) feel I should move on.
Even if a reconciliation isn't what He has planned, I know that I have already received the greatest gift...a close R with Him. I pray every day that I will never be the same person I was before this all started which was someone who knew God but wasn't a real follower of Christ. I still have a long, long way to go.
Standing for your M is much more than waiting for your R to be restored. It is about becoming so much more and caring about others more than yourself. Standing is about trusting God with everything.
