Well, I can see some more old patterns - H has had a rough day dealing with family issues and wants to go for a beer tonight. I have remained ok I think, but feel those same feelings and fears creeping up - will he stay out late, is he drifting away again. I don't want the stress of this time after his father's death to push him over the edge again.

Going to try and present an upbeat attitude, and be supportive, but I'm wondering if it's OK to say I don't want us to drift apart again????? Guess I'll just see how he seems, see if it would be a good time to discuss this - or maybe I'll sleep on it tonight and talk tomorrow???? I hate feeling the fears returning!

Mockers2 "Somehow we survive, and tenderness frustrated does not wither." Dennis Brutus, South African poet "That which does not kill us makes us stronger." Friedrich Nietzsche