Hi Lee - thank you for posting. You're right, I just needed to see what I was doing and redirect myself emotionally. It is tough to do that at times, but easier in some ways after reading DR. I'm glad to hear things are going better in your life. Terriffic job on using your W's LL - good to be seeing some positive results of all your efforts! Hang in there, too. You have come a long way!

Lately I've been letting myself focus on some of the hurtful things that have happened in the last year - not things related to H or the separation, but things others have done. This is really interfering greatly with my ability to forgive, so I must work on this and keep praying. I have decided that I am not capable of forgiving some of God can do it for me. I am planning to write a letter to a man who betrayed our trust in the post bomb period (we thought he was a friend, but obviously he was not). One of those "I may never mail it" letters, just to get the feelings out. Maybe that will help.


Positives:
1. Tha tulips we (H, the children and I) planted together are coming up - a few each day! Everyone seems excited. This is one area I am pleased with - I actually see some progress here - that we are accomplishing one of our goals. H seems proud too. It is good to see him smile.
2. H and I had another good date this week - alot of laughing.
3. We have the weekend off together - neither of us work for the first time in several weeks.

Another thing to work on - I am finding myself feeling frustrated that H and I have so little time to talk to each other. We are doing well with the date nigths, but on most other nights, we are both so tired that wejust go straight to bed - not very exciting. Need to brainstorm on this.

Take care, everyone. Keeping all of you in my thoughts and prayers. Thank you for your encouragement.

Mockers2 "Somehow we survive, and tenderness frustrated does not wither." Dennis Brutus, South African poet "That which does not kill us makes us stronger." Friedrich Nietzsche