When W dropped the bomb back in March, I stayed in our bed for 2 nights then moved to the couch in the living room, then to my son's bedroom (which is now the spare since he is out of the house) which is where I have been since then. I've read more than one article about this which says I should have stayed in our bedroom and had W move out if she did not want to share the bed with me.
So, it's been 4+ months. I've endured her infidelity with the EA and all of the crap that comes with an EA, her lying about the EA/OM, her complete rejection of me in every way possible, feeling like a 2nd class citizen in my own house and now the craziness I posted this morning.
I want to say to her everything I just wrote above, and start taking back my own life in my own house. Move back into our bedroom and let her find a new place to sleep. Tell her if she continues the EA, she needs to find another place to live.
My S and D see everything that is going on and wonder why I don't stand up for my rights and send her packing. They are furious at her and think she does not deserve me.
Yes, I love her. Yes, I want a new R/M with her. But how much infidelity, dishonesty, selfishness and cruelty should I put up with in the hope that something will turn around, which, according to her very words, will not happen?
H 56 W 48 D27,S21 SS25 SS22 Severely autistic M(#2 for both) 9 1/2 yrs. "I've never loved you" 3/7/2011 Separated 8/7/2011 BITS
