Rationally, I realize this... and I can see a lot of that already; I'm making more friends, I'm doing fun things, I'm seeing lots of opportunities.
It's not a question of being happy; I know that's coming (particularly after things are final and maintenance is over, etc). It's that I've completely lost faith in the institution of marriage and my ability to trust deeply is so heavily damaged I just can't picture opening up to someone like that again.
But thanks for the positive prognosis. Everyone and their brother is telling me the same thing--that in time this may be one of the best things that's ever happened to me. Losing my lover, my best friend, and half my assets, that's pretty hard to see from here.
