I guess I am now an official member of the DB club

[Woodman]

Still no contact with spouse. She only checks email sporadically and I haven't sent her any except for one about how to fund our remaining joint account so we can pay some bills. A mutual friend gave me her new "secret" phone number a couple of weeks ago. I have not used it. I am trying to stay dark to give her some space and for my own mental well being.
I checked our checking account and found that she went to see our family doc. He is both our doctor and our deacon at Church. It is a good combination. He knows of W's story, and tried to put her on AD last December. She filled the prescription and pretended to take them but didn't. The one time we spoke since she left, we talked about maybe it would be a good idea for her to go see him again. Maybe that is what she did and maybe she is getting some help with her demons. Or maybe it was just an office visit for a minor illness. All I can do is speculate. I guess hope springs eternal. If she did reach out to him for help, I know that she did not just get a handful of pills. He also gave her good counsel and recommended that she get into IC. Of course because of the new confidentiality laws, he really can't tell me anything.
Another week has gone by and I still do not have divorce papers. She started out going full tilt boogie towards divorce. I don't know if she asked her lawyer to put a hold on it, or she is just passively not doing her paperwork. Either way, I am grateful. As far as I am concerned divorce is not an option. I cannot stop it, but I will not participate any more than I have to and will do whatever I can to delay it.
I continue to put one foot in front of the other and try to live one hour at a time. I am continuing to GAL by reconnecting with old friends from my working days. Sleep is still elusive but I don't wake up in a full panic like I did the first month.
I realize she is a WAW but could this be a case of MLC? Are women as affected by MLC as men? The only thing I can determine by her actions is that she appears to have low self worth.
My prayer is that she will soon have the need to make some kind of contact.