And when people point out the many positives, you have your answers down pat.
None of which help you, none of which make things any different in your world.
You admit everywhere you have a hard time letting go of resentment, getting past your many grudges against your H, your pessimism is palpable.
Your poor H.
You have had far wiser, more capable posters than myself. They have told you over and over and over again to focus on the positives and lose the "Eyore attitude".
Because I lived with a "half glass full" kinda guy (OMG he TOLD me he was like this when I met him!! ), I can't tell you how DRAINING it is. I called him the "everlasting gobSUCKER" in my life, because he loves the movie Willie Wonka and he constantly sucked my joy and life.
I am becoming "Tigger". I am bouncing around in JOY because my eternal suck is becoming less and less and I am becoming more and more capable of dealing with things as they come up MYSELF. I have friends that are POSITIVE and JOYFUL to be around and I am NOT going back to the other for ANYTHING!
I NEVER hear on these threads that your H has the negativity and resentments--he doesn't seem to EVER snap at you, ever act ugly to you, he seems to ENJOY your interaction UNTIL you have another change of attitude (which is immediately felt by EVERYONE--not just him)
^^^^HUGE^^^^ POSITIVE^^^^
Sorry--not nearly as tactful as Jack or 25 or Brooklyn.
Hesitated for days about posting.
But realize--hey--won't be taken to heart anyway--what the heck!
(back to my bouncing!! Despite having a nasty dogbite and a water leak in my bathroom and no job and ....doesn't matter because my joy is set and I won't let ANYONE who wants to suck it away back into my life!)
