Thank you, Jackie for your post. It means alot to me to hear from you. Maybe I should check out that book too - feeling like I have lead in my bones too.

One thought for you - have your had your thyroid checked? It is an idea. Alot of women have thyroid disease that is unrecognized.

Mine is low, and I'm on meds. My levels were fine the last time they were checked. Your "lead in my bones" comment made me think of this.

Off to continue to kick myself in the pants. Anyone have a 2x4 I could borrow and use on myself?

Mockers2 "Somehow we survive, and tenderness frustrated does not wither." Dennis Brutus, South African poet "That which does not kill us makes us stronger." Friedrich Nietzsche