You are making this more complicated than you need. Wow 36 you are going to have a tough time (just kidding)! I would love to be 36 again! You are young quit tryng to lower yourself into the hole even further.
You have only failed if you give up on life. You can still have kids you can always buy a house and you can always better yourself.
The way I see this is you need to face your fears! When we face our fears you have nothing else to fear. Yes it's easier said than done and yes you can do this.
Life will only turn out like you want, if you do the things to make that happen. Quit beating yourself up over nothing and make the life that you desire.
Me 44 W 38 M 18 D 18 D 13 Bomb 10/21/2010 Divorced 7/19/2011 Just getting to the 7th inning!
