Forgetting those things which are behind......

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For some reason I can't post at the end of this thread - the "reply" box is missing????

Maybe posting here will work. Hope you are doing well. Things here are going pretty well overall, despite a very low PMA dip on my part???? Don't know what is wrong with me - just feeling like I'm not doing a good job in any facet of my life. Feeling a bit overwhelmed.

H has been wonderful, though, and hasn't seemed to notice, although I fear he probably has noticed, but is taking it in stride. I'm just feeling a little nervous in that I don't want to slip back into pro-bomb negative habits (especially the low self-esteem).

I rowed my own boat (to use Jackie's term)last night and went out with some friends, and while I was alone in the car I realized that under the surface, there is still alot of sadness. I haven't really felt this is a while. ??????

Anyway, I just need to pick myself up, put on a smile and push myself out of this hole I'm falling into.

Positives:
1. H said I looked great this AM - I was able to smile and say thank you with confidence, even though I feel like I look awful.
2. H and I watched a movie over the weekend together - like a mini date at home.
3. Still lots of laughing.
4. H is coming with me again to a doctor's appointment - this is something new - he has never done this except for OB appointments in the past.
5. H whistled at me a couple of times this weekend.

So why can't I feel happier? Yuck! Off to get some work done (work has gotten so crazy) and give myself a kick in the pants ~ Sorry for the sadsack post. Just needed to get it out. I truly have so much to be thankful for. I guess having some down days is a normal process in all this.

Take care, everyone. You are in my thoughts and prayers.