Im just going to give up.

[Timetotry]

Rue,

My heart goes out to you. We all ask the same questions.

I only answer it myself with "God has a life lesson or purpose in all of this that we may not know why until our death bed".

Just trust in him, let life "be" and as time goes on, you WILL feel better.

Its hard, very hard.

You found this board, we are all here to support each other in any way we can.

Some make it through, some don't.

This experience, as painful as it is, will make YOU a better person.

Believe.