Thank you Shay and Jackie for stopping by! I still need all the encouragement and support I can get. I am way behind in my reading here - work has just been so busy for a while now.....
Shay - so glad to hear your H is back. This is terriffic! I need to catch up with you and feel the same - that we have some similarities. I have had a little dip in the pma (very brief episodes) a couple of times in the last week. I have had the thought that my H ended his R with the OP because she cheated on him. I have wondered if she had not done that, would he still have come back to me? Ridiculous thought, b/c he is home now, but it has popped up a few times. Not sure I'm ready for a talk about the A - still too raw if I really let myself think about it for any length of time. I think in time, though, that that would probably be helpful for us both. Maybe my ideas of the OP are inaccurate too. I'm looking forward to catching up with you!
Jackie - Sorry I haven't posted much. Please know I am thinking of you and continue to say prayers. I'm sorry about your little guy's behavior. It can really hurt. It seems to be evening out some here, but there are times when it still gets to me. I have talked about this to several people at work, and a pediatrician I trust and they have all said that this behavior "shows she is very secure in her attachment to you. She feels safe with you." This didn't help me immediately, and as I said I still have those days when it really hurts my feelings, but when I start feeling that way, I repeat over and over to myself that they know I love them and feel secure with me - secure enough to act up more with me at times. Also, I think, even as little as they are (I know yours are a little older than mine) that they pick up on who's been there all along and who left or wasn't there.
Glad to hear your flying is going well. I'm still barely even fluttering, but I won't give up! It's so good your H is noticing! That is wonderful!
I still haven't managed to get my hands on a copy of Body for Life. I have been trying to cut back on/cut out the junk and eat what I see the others eating on the just for fun thread. Babysteps here too are better than nothing though.
Positives: 1. H has been refering to me as his friend again. 2. H said he missed me when work had him away for several days. 3. I did a 180 (details not important) and H really noticed and was pleased. 4. I was very tempted to snoop recently and I stayed strong and didn't snoop.
Take care, everyone. Know I am thinking of you and saying prayers. Thank you all for your encouragement and support.
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"Somehow we survive, and tenderness frustrated does not wither." Dennis Brutus, South African poet
"That which does not kill us makes us stronger."
Friedrich Nietzsche
