Going N/C wish me perseverance/strength

[Queen_of_Swords]

Thanks Seminole.
Yep I am living like we are D now.
Before this ( maybe two weeks ago) I was still hanging on to hope that he'd finally wake up and really see and understand what the costs will be. He hasn't and won't...perhaps never will. That's his problem.

After reading this: http://www.midlifecrisismarriageadvocate...d-distance.html
who someone here kindly posted. I realise my situation is freaking textbook.

I need to shut the heck up, and back the heck waaaaaaay off.

So, I have mantras that I repeat everytime I think about STBX or the situation.

I'm finding I care a little less about him, everytime I say them in my own head. I remind myself of my own value and that I don't "need" him to augment my happiness.

Ultimately I realize too, I don't want him back until he's addressed his own dysfunctional behaviours.
How I was treated was cruel, I won't be treated that way again.
If he chooses not to come back, I do have a LOT going for me and I can survive and even thrive.I wish him well, more I can't do.