I am doing my best to keep the changes going... I am happy with who I am now. I feel like I am 90% there. The other 10% would be R stuff to work on.
In the end no matter what path my marriage follows, I know that I am proud of me. If my W choses to end our M then I know that it is because of her resistance to take ownership of her part in the marriage breakdown. The sad thing is that since I have been DBing, I haven't seen any improvement in our sitch. Maybe it's just that I am expecting too much too soon, or, maybe there is no hope for reconciliation. The later is hard to accept though because I remember how much in love we once were. What I would give to have that back with her. But until (if) she can learn to grant forgiveness instead of harboring every mistake, her life will continue to be miserable and hopeless. I hope that is not her future. I want only the best life can give her. I tried hard to give her that life, and in doing so It may have contributed to our downfall...
Me 45 W 34 W.A.W. 3K. D11 S9 D6 M 12 y T 13 y Bomb drop 02/22/2011 2nd written bomb (Letter bomb) 05/31/2011 Affair (A bomb) revealed 07/03/2011
