Forgetting those things which are behind......

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Hi everyone~

Thinking of all of you and keeping you in my prayers. I miss you!

Thank you, Jackie for your post. I have been doing some reading and talking to folks at work too. I am also trying to laugh and just let some things go - to depersonalize her behavior in a way, I guess. It has been going well this week.

Things are pretty stable at home. Positives:
1. H and I have been having some good talks - not R talks.
2. We had a date this week that went well.
3. We were discussing an issue about my SIL. I gave an opinion, then realized I wasn't listening and validating, that I was talking instead, and I said somehting to the effect of "I shouldn't really be commenting on this......" H said,"I want your thoughts and opinions on this." A very nice affirmation for me.
4. H called me to ask about the possibility of going out with the guys from work tonight. I acted enthusiastic and supportive. H called back soon after to say that the plans were cancelled, but that he really appreciated me being supportive. This doesn't sound like a big deal as I type it, but based on our pre-bomb R, this is a big step for us.

Here is an exerpt from my devotional for today that I thought was really applicable to keeping focused on the positive (Taken from Our Daily Bread - Dec. Jan. Feb.):

Missionary pilot Bernie May writes, "One of the most difficult lessons to teach new pilots about landing on short, hazardous airstrips is to keep their eyes on the good part of the strip rather than on the hazard. The natural tendency is to concentrate on the obstacle, the danger, the thing he is trying to avoid. But experience teaches us that a pilot who keeps his eye on the hazard will sooner or later hit it dead center." Bernie May sums it up by saying that experienced pilots focus their attention solidly on the track they want the plane to follow, keeping the hazards in their peripheral vision only.

This just seemed to fit with my struggle to stay focused on the positives, instead on my fears.

Hope all of you are doing well. Maybe work will slow down enough soon that I'll be able to post and read more. Take care~