Next? Waiting. Tick tock.... Hard not to have some hopes elevated that he'll reply again, but trying to temper the anticipation & prepare for the possibility that he'll be silent. I think I shouldn't have asked a couple questions. I asked about his health. I thought that was reasonable since he was so ill at the time he left. But if he's not well, he may not want to say so. If he is, then it's a stupid question. Since he was so upset thinking I didn't care about his illness, I thought it would be good to show I remain concerned. But after hitting the send button, I decided I shouldn't have asked anything. If he was replying, I should have stuck with what was working. I felt I had nothing to lose by taking it up a notch. I don't have a clue how this will go. I reached out and he responded. That's not necessarily anything to be excited over. I really don't want to know if he's got a woman in his life. So if I end up hearing that, then I actually will be worse off than I was, because at least now I can imagine that he's single. Maybe he's dated a bit, like me... but can't get something going because his heart remains tied to me. If he's got a woman in his life, I never want to know about it. Right about now I could use some help from the universe, luck, destiny, whatever you call it. Would be good timing to bump into him someplace. Umm, preferably on a day that I look great and am not rushing somewhere, lol. It's been over a year since we've seen each other. He would surely be a sight for sore eyes! But for now, just waiting. Trying not to anxiously check my phone every time a message comes in. Being cool as I can. Much prefer when I owe him.
