XYZ is here, and it looks like I'm staying...

[XYZ]

Having a rough day. This really pisses me off because 3 days ago I was really in a good spot. Nothing significant has changed, I'm just cycling and it [censored]. I sure hope I cycle up again soon....

Only 3 items worth noting...

(1) no therapy appointment yet. Uggggghh. I know the week isn't over yet, but come on...

(2) W wanted to be careful about ILY in front of kids. They have completely dropped off except in TM. I guess I get it, but hate it and makes me feel like something has changed (back), although I don't really think it has, just feels that way.

(3) D6 asked me last night "daddy, did you want to leave?". I said "no honey, I didn't." She said, "what did you say when mommy told you you had to leave?". I just said "I was sad that mommy and I weren't getting along like we should". I almost feel apart. My heart is broken.