the emotions will even out as time goes by. how much time is unknown. its taken me years. there's still anger, disappointment, regret - all relating to my situation and how it affects my daughter.
but i don't miss X as a person, that's gone.
so time heals, if you keep yourself healing. you can stew in sadness and anger and everything else as long as you choose to.
keep making yourself better, working out was/is my savior. make to-do lists and keep busy. take a break, give yourself a break.
what you put in your thoughts is as much a habit as snooping. control your thoughts. this was my hardest struggle - i spent so much time mulling over what happened and what went wrong, that i couldnt stop. it became the thoughts that started when i wasnt trying.
"In a ham and eggs breakfast, the hen is involved, but the pig is committed".
